Eye openers

I had a good long talk with my sister tonight. I pretty much dominated the conversation; not so much on purpose, but just cuz I needed it.

I have been really miserable at work without really acknowledging it or doing anything about it. 'Why not?', you ask. Well, to be honest I have a lot of excuses but not a single good reason. It's like I've been too lazy to really look inside myself and take time for myself.

Don't worry, I'm not going to up and quit the jobby. I am however, going to be doing some serious soul searching in the next few weeks. While I may not have the energy now to do what it takes to actually find another job that I enjoy, I have found the motivation to find out why I don't have the energy to do what it takes to actually find another job that I enjoy. It's at least a good point to start from and it's quite clear to me now that it really needs to get done if I am to do anything productive with/for myself.

(This is me contemplating life...)


If I seem more internal than usual it's because I need it. Basically, you might need to poke me with a stick to get my attention. :) later.